Pause

Since I can remember, I’ve constantly felt like I was waiting to be just a little bit older. In fifth grade I longed for the privileges of being in middle school where I wouldn’t have to walk in a line to class, could have a locker and even get a cell phone. But those novelties …

Little Leah

Sometimes I have flashbacks. The flashbacks come at inconvenient and unexpected times and feel like they’re pulling me back into a person I was in college, who I definitely don’t want to be. They’re flashbacks of my darkest memories, my weakest moments and the times when I was both self-destructive and destructive to anyone who …

Even If

As I sat in church in early April, I felt completely hollowed out and like my hands were empty with nothing left to offer. I felt burnt out. I sat in the pew with my shoulders slumped as if they physically felt the weight of my circumstances. At the time I was unemployed, effectively broke …

Pity Party

One dreary day in March, I threw myself a pity party with all the trimmings. It included moping, tears of frustration and discouragement, and even a fight with my Dad over the phone. I felt stuck and the rainy, gloomy weather trapping me inside all day certainly didn’t help the illusion. I had just gotten …